in silence

Monday, August 18, 2008

Today will be a day filled with tears. Tears for the memories of the things you've done and the pain you've caused. Tears for the joy of those single moments where the world stopped and it was just us; you and me, standing, sitting, staring…allowing the game to be given up for once; unreserved and feeling our reality for the first time, away from former hurt. Yet, a reality that would not carry on…
As much as I try to overcome it, it's your eyes that constantly haunt my dreams. With two steps forward, a bittersweet hope brings me one step back. The dream of a fairy tale shattered wide open by the brutal fact of reality. Yet somehow, a flicker of that flame still smolders inside of me…waiting. Waiting to be smothered, or given life again...
Your silence has always exposed your true meaning. And here you sit in your silence again; like it never left.
Unrequited and unattainable; letting go, to never feel again. Giving up those incomparable kisses for a grasp at freedom and perceived happiness. To hinder, to hide, to repress; never again to taste your lips and feel your skin. Never to be in your embrace, longing to believe it was only meant for me. Because these eyes have witnessed the truth. And these ears have heard the resonating words of its pain. Tortured through reality only to let go of love in the end.
Ahead is a new day; a day of change. And with it, in this silence…I remember you.